The Reset Button

So it's a new year this 2010...As if I don't already have enough blogging and social networking sites to manage, I thought I would start a new one. Appropriate since I have just begun a whole new life in a whole new state, city, church & home. I have a new perspective on things as well. I now feel the need to just jot down what's on my mind really. Certainly more for myself than for other readers.

I really didn't know what to expect from myself in moving to WI from Texas. I was so ready for a change, and although I was scared I didn't really realize how bad I needed it until we did it. Although I didn't see my family or closest friends much before, I didn't know if I would be able to live in a place where everything was different and so far away from everything I ever knew. I had none of the old to fall back on if I got scared, insecure,or unsure of things. Moreover, I was in such a hard place emotionally and spiritually, I didn't even want to fall back on those things. I felt like I was in Limbo Land no matter how hard I tried to abandon it.

Moving was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. I got a chance to start over new and fresh. Not only in my everyday life, but in my mind and heart. It's like the reset button was punched. I love our new church, home, weather, & city....It's refreshing! I do miss the convenience of freedom to see my family and friends when I wanted, but I have been given an opportunity to allow those who are in my life now rival the intimacy with some of the people in my past. The coolest thing about it is that most of these people actually desire that kind of relationship as well....and that has been rare in my life.

So this year, my goals are to find out what my desires are in my relationship with Christ. Now that things are settled and I've had a chance to move on, I can embrace the new and what God has for me. I want to take my time in figuring out where I can serve in this church. I want to begin to do some of the things that I have never allowed myself to do in worshipping God. I want to specifically figure out what it is that God created and designed me for. I want to be myself and not try and meet anyones expectations other than my Creators.